You must study until your brains come out

Imagine sitting down everyday for 8 hours to study and still not feeling like you are studying enough. This is medical school. You will cram more information into your brain than you have in all of your years past. You will make up mnemonics to remember the names of the hand bones such as Some Lovers Try Positions They Can't Handle. Sometimes, you will forget what the mnemonics even stand for. You will have to look at the heart from some obscene angle and identify exactly what cusp you are looking at. You will have to look at the human body from many angles, from the tiniest speckle of a cell to the heart to the circulatory system to the wholeness of the human body and spirit. At the beginning, I had a voracious appetite to learn all I could about the intricacies of the human body, but with time, you get burnt out. At least by the time I was burnt out, it was time for winter break. I never feel as if I am wasting my time. I am excited to be doing what I am doing. However, when you get free time, you must use it. After I finished the semester, I took the polar plunge with my fellow classmates. We took a dip into Lake Michigan when it was approximately 30 degrees Fahrenheit outside. It was invigorating and wonderful. If you are wanting to go to medical school or imagine it in your future, you will have to make a lot of sacrifices. You will study more than you ever imagined. But, it will all be worth it.

How can love fade so fast...

Everyone said my relationship was doomed from the moment I got accepted into medical school. I tried to tell myself it could work if the foundation of our relationship was strong. Circumstances do matter and contribute to the death of a loving relationship. However, for me, it was more than medical school that separated us. I always have to separate from a person, when they begin to lose site of themselves. Women are attracted to men and men are attracted to women because of the qualities they possess when they first meet them. This is why you have to maintain yourself in a relationship, in order to keep your lover coming back. You must keep your independence and you must always love yourself first before you can have a strong committed relationship. I want to be with a man, who has his own interests, his own life, his own passions. I never want to be his only passion. My previous lover was a gentlemen, a smart man, a family man, a wonderful son, a giver, and a teacher. Any woman would be lucky to have him as her mate. However, I am not every woman. Love is a tricky and dangerous situation. You try to further your relationship and love each other more and more. However, sometimes you get to the point where you lose site of your self in each other. I do not believe this is healthy. I still think he does. He wants to be with another women who will codepend on him, and that's just not me. Many of my other classmates have broken up with their significant others. It sucks. It makes us seem like we are going to be cold-harded doctors. However, in my mind, I realize what my life is going to be like, and only some people are going to be willing to stick around for that. I am sad that a two year relationship can be over so fast, but, in the end, it is for the best. I am excited to travel the world and do whatever I want to do. I don't really think I will settle down for a while. There are so many things that I want to do. All in all, whether you are in medical school or high school or working 9-5, two people coming together does not equal one. Always love yourself first. Make sure you make time for your own friends. Let your significant other hang out with their friends and family and do not make them feel guilty for doing so. Take a day for yourself. Give each other breaks. This will lead to a long and fulfilling relationship, rather than one in which you burn out too quickly. Never give up on love.